I am afraid of failure in graduate school.

I feel like I’m not (      ) enough. Insert *smart *thin/fit *others-focused *stable 

There is a small fear that I’m not worthy of love. 

It’s a dangerous thing, to focus on yourself. 

I need to believe that God delights in me. I need to memorize scripture in times of weakness/daily life. I need to see myself as God sees me. I feel the need to grow, so I can focus outwards on serving others. 

Today I got into an accident. I’m very lucky to only have a headache. I need a whole new windshield. One of my roommates found out her favorite professor has cancer and is probably going to pass away. Another roommate had to go see her mother whose very odd behavior indicates possible early onset Altzheimer’s disease. One roommate is having medical concerns the doctors can’t figure out. Another friend found out very difficult news. 

We have medical problems, financial, housing, but God provides. Thankful for life. Thankful for safety. Thankful for God. Thankful for prayer. 

Pray. Please pray. 

Isaiah 40:27-31 (Taken with instagram)

So good! 

Dear world, 

Life isn’t about making all your dreams come true or following your heart all the time. Decisions that you make “in the moment” are not always the best decisions. So many people just try to be walking characters from romance novels, but that’s not how life works. If you live life in the moment, in the song lyric, rolling with your emotions, you’re going to miss out on this fantastic thing called purpose. 

Live life with purpose. Live it for a purpose. I’m living life by following Christ meaning that I try to make wise choices, serve others, and do my best, seeking to bring glory to Christ. Is it easy? No. Is it always fun? No. Does it hurt sometimes? Yes. 

Choosing to love others and love God isn’t easy. He promised us that it wouldn’t be. How about choosing to live with purpose? You can have joy, rich, deep fulfilling joy that overflows. It beats this mediocre and temporary happiness high. 

Just think about it.